Satisfied

in terms of Mondays, today was green

a bit to the left, yet still in between

i glanced at all extremes with an unproductive smirk

mindset being fuck everyone once i arrive at work

my nails are painted for reasons unbeknownst

i awoke in a ditch and left unannounced

all that matters is that i'm satisfied

years of angst meant days of misery

hours of anguish built from minutes of history

self-inflicted pain imagined by a brain gone awry

sad motion pictures where one pays to cry

all in all, enough was enough as I was spent

everything did was done, so it was time to repent

all that matters is that i'm satisfied

the genesis of fear

heavy memories weigh on my heart

my mind, my body and soul

the pressure inside forces tear formation

as my empty cavity swells with emotion

contradicting forces rattle my foundation

allowing the weak to become strong

tired of toiling under endless oppression

they create their own web of influence

while a river of hurt drains down my face

the tsunami of pain consumes me

i'm overwhelmed by past, present and future

none of which i can control

my instincts scream run and escape

all that was is now what we knew

and nothing ahead will remain

culminating into a reason for fear