Showing posts with label grey. Show all posts
Showing posts with label grey. Show all posts

Monday, November 23, 2009

Seasonal Reasoning

The grey skies continue, both inside and outside my head. I would say the trend is now nearing 2 months of general sub-par emotions. I’ve cut back on my “bad habit” and have noticed little change, so not quite sure of the cause. With that said, the past weekend was a w.b. weekend, so I feel somewhat better, but know that an extended w/o. b. is approaching, and as a result - the need to entertain myself in productive ways.

I was thinking about Seasonal Affective Disorder (SAD – fitting acronym, huh?), since I certainly notice a distinct emotional drop-off in the past 2 months and the symptoms seem to match up:

Symptoms of SAD may consist of: difficulty waking up in the morning, tendency to oversleep as well as to overeat, and especially a craving for carbohydrates, which leads to weight gain. Other symptoms include a lack of energy, difficulty concentrating on completing tasks, and withdrawal from friends, family, and social activities. All of this leads to the depression, pessimism, and lack of pleasure which characterize a person suffering from this disorder (per Wikipedia).

Do I see my doc to get my meds re-adjusted or just see it through and let things play out? I see I asked myself the same question last month, so I think if something doesn’t give by Christmas, then I’ll proceed to option 1. If you’re reading and haven’t heard from me, then don’t take it personal… I’m avoiding everybody. You’re neither special nor shunned… just an unlucky acquaintance of a SAD patient.

Thursday, August 27, 2009

grey skies

Grey skies foretell the coming day
The shades gently sway,
keeping in step with the trees
I wish the breeze would take me with it

Optimism overshadowed by doubt
Worries steeped in fear and loathing
I wonder when the skies will clear
and let the sun wash that all away

Slowly, routine drives me from bed to door
I see the day painted on the faces I pass
Long and solemn, with nary a "Hello"
Not one to stand out, I follow in stride

As I navigate through this sea of neutrality
One can sense the underlying hope,
that on better days would beam blue
Driving us to tolerate this day of grey

... To be continued