sick of...

have you.. yeah YOU.. ever wondered if someone didn't give a shit about you?

what if... they truly yawned upon news of your untimely demise?

the sooner you accept it, the better you'll sleep at night because you're one of billions and someone is dying or just died and you don't know them and don't care... nothing personal, but that's life.

i guess i'm sick of beating myself up over things i can't help or change... it's been a fault of mine for a good chunk of time and i've wasted a lot of precious time doing so. not sure if i can up and stop, however i'm making a bit more effort to move past things and enjoy time as it presents itself.

whether it works for me will be seen over time, but it's one thing that i can change and that's something i've yet had a chance to get sick of.